A Crush

So it really has been years since I have allowed myself to have a crush on someone. It is GREAT. Like daydreaming and constantly wondering who the person is. It is totally infatuation because you just dont know. But my senses are going NUTS. She is so cute. TOO young. Seems soo confident and happy about herself. Its just attractive. I really havent been so attracted to someone in awhile. Salome started as a very minor attraction that grew bigger and bigger. That seems healthier but it isn't as much fun. Just a major/minor crush. What to do? All I really can do is hope that fate or god or randomness puts me in the right place at the right time with the right things to say. I know who I am and I must put myself out there and accept the results. Its great knowing that any given day this person can walk by, have a quick 3 minute conversation, and totally send me on a high. She goes to my school and she goes to my favorite place(the only place i go to) on Thursdays. Thanks Beatles for making my life better once again. I have a few crushes and they all have major issues. One is totally taken but we have a lot to talk about and she is cute. Her boyfriend is cool and a good guy. I have to or already kind of am getting over that. I enjoy being freinds with them and for sure wont let my crush get in the way of that shit. The other is 18! haha Its craaaazy. Whats wrong with me. The 18 year old is the one that drives me craaaazy. The funny thing is... I don't even know her name yet. I will find that out but I do not know what to do. She appears to be so down to earth, and I LOVE the way she dances. haha its soo cute. Its not crazy or sexy or anything that draws the normal horny guys attention. Its graceful and cool and confident and chill. Its fucking attractive. It drives my senses nuts. ahhh what i relief to feel this hope again. Salome was great, but it really was time for us to move on. WOW i think really mean that. cooool. I dont expect to get this crush, but I expect her to bring me simple happiness for as long as I keep running into her with something small to say. Today I FINALLY saw her outside of beatle at school. I looked like shit so i saw her and tried to run away but she saw me(probably cause i akwardly saw her) and said "Hey!", wowww We talked but I still didnt get her name. haha it really doesnt matter. I am going to take this slow. Im too interested right now not to try. Fuck it if I fail. This mystery is so fun. I missed it. I feel young and happy again rather than old and content like girlfriends make you feel. Maybe in 5 years when she is close to my age now, I can actually get her number and we can be old and content together. What a wonderful daydream.