Want to send this, but shouldnt.

Hey Sal,

I just want you to know that it was pretty dissapointing how ackward it was yesterday and how you havent even written back. Me and jeff ran the loop and he insisted on showing me his favorite new coffee place on Rice campus. I kept telling him how much i dont want to because of fear of running into you and he just didnt listen . When i saw you I was just pissed at Jeff and frustrated about the situation. You didnt seem happy to see me either so that situation was hell for me. I wonder if your last email was just an attempt to satisfy your curiousity or if you genuinely missed me. I guess that depends on what minute of the day it was. Does it mean anything to you that we shared many good times at Eisley, Mini Tigers, Say Anything, AND Moneen shows? Do you even think about me or were you just texting your boyfriend missing him? I really shouldnt give a shit what you think and I w ouldnt of cared at all if you didnt send that stupid curious message that was fruitless. I have made my peace with you about my mistakes I made more than a year ago but you treated me like I was the one who lied repeatedly to you and used you for emotion stability. That was you remember? If you were somewhat of a decent person you forget all the bullshit and be real with me. Oh wait i forgot... you are a bad person. What a fucking cop-out. What the fuck could of changed from... We should have a drink... to... uh ok hi see you later. Was it your environment and Claire? Thats pathetic. You dont deserve to know anything about me, even if you are just curious. When I said I miss you, i meant I missed the old you. When I say I love you i am talking about the eternal feeling and caring of you that we established years ago. That will always be there because of who you were to me and the impact you had on me. It truly sucks to having you kind of be in this new phase of life. It sucks that the thing I look forward to the most(concerts) are ruined by you and claires inability to be mature. I wish you would just leave this city so I dont have to worry about seeing you. You know when i thought I hated you, i obviously loved you. The opposite of love is indifference not hate. We are sadly very very close to being indifferent to each other. Im starting to not care if you are happy or sad. All i want for you to just be DEEP in my past. If you could possibly take the time out of your busy schedule than maybe you can explain yourself. I hope you have something better than... sorry ro I am a bad person. Dont worry, nobody will know how you really feel. If not than Ill make a deal with you. Stop sending leave me alone with your curious emails and I will leave you alone in person.